The beginning. Or was it the end?

I have found myself in the land of the brokenhearted again. Three and a half years. I thought I would marry this man. Thought I had found my happily ever after.

Did I though? In hindsight, this wasn’t the man of my dreams. He was mean when he drank. He bit his fingernails. He never said anything nice to me or about me. I had to ask for hugs! What kind of relationship was that?! My family noticed that I was losing parts of myself for this relationship. I gave my all into it, and sacrificed all that I could, and I came out a bit empty on the other end

What made me so blind to think that I didn’t deserve any more than what I was getting out of the relationship? It was me! I was getting in the way of my own happiness. I had resigned myself to thinking that I didn’t deserve anything more. I must have done something in my life to only deserve mediocre.

Which brings me to today. Two months out of what has proven to be the best relationship I could have asked for. Why is that? I know exactly what I don’t want. I know what is important to me, and I’m not willing to settle for anything less than finding my happily ever after.

Today, I start my own happily ever after. I’m excited to find someone to share it with. This blog isn’t just about love or me whining about being alone (which does happen sometimes). I’ll talk about dating, cooking, learning new hobbies…like the name of the blog, I’m finding myself again. I’m not the best writer, and sometimes I’m a bit scatterbrained, but you’ll be entertained.